2009 A NEW YEAR....

and my resolution....to update this dumb dead blog more...haha

I know its been like aeons since i last even came here....but...what can i do...i am such a busy woman...yea...ive been busy watching dramas and more dramas...haha...ah

but from on...for a new year...i promise to update moree! =))

haha..oh yea! firstly HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL.

2009....seems like times files by eh...2008 is gone....and i dont really have a clue what i did...
all i know is tt i watched super alot of shows...haha

ahh well....my exams are done...hope i pass all3 of them...or else i really really can just go and diee...results cmg out on feb end...hopefully it will be alright...haha...ahh well...

haha...ohh anw really have to say thanx to nisha...haha...totally went to her sch everyday since i ended sch to study in her lib...and she would follow me sometimes even if she didnt have lessons...and she would also miss lessons and by miss i mean purposly not go fro them....haha...and not to keep me accompany but to watch sn and gg! haha...okok...not really but yea...luckly she had sch...and she let me invade her life for a mth man...or else ah...i wouldnt have finished wad i sld have...haha...so thx! one of the things i am grateful for lat year! haha

and i am not gg to list anymore...but i do have alot of things i am grateful for...hahaha...just lazy...haha

ahh...ooo we went for a KL trip with my parents and everyone...it was fun. haha...ok one day sucked...cause i couldnt go for the water rides...really sucked. and we went all the way to sunway lagoon for tt day but i couldnt go for the damn rides. and not only could i not go...i was in pain...and i mean literally...haha...ahh well...other than tt...it was nice...

ahh...and can u believe it i had lesson on the day after new year? and its on a fri...how sad can my life be eh... ahhh. and the teacher is even more unbelievable. shes like a non-stop nagging machine... and by nag she really nags like a mother...example...she would talk abt the importance of making friends during the lesson for abt three time, spending 15 mins on it each time. and mind you, this is just one example. shes just ahhhhhh.

totally stuck with her for 18 more lessons...ahhhh...the tot it just makes me...oh and the topic she teaches on, law. i know. super ouch!!

alright..i will update again soon. and we will see then! haha....

=))

Roller Coaster...

Downs and...wont say ups...but feel (or rather felt) better at times...

I just dont get ppl sometimes...
How they can "forget" abt a disagreement you just had the next day...and abt a few days when you fight again it comes backs...they would talk abt it again during the current argument...i mean just finish off...get so pist at times man....just wad they hell on earth do you wan kinda feeling...

Anw...been gg out alot again this week...but i did study as well...but as if its not enough though...haha...as always...

I have 25 days more to my exams...damn ahh...

Just cant believe i got myslef into this mess...haha...well...for once i wan to clear the mess with a good smell...dont get it? TOO BAD! Haha...Well you not not smart if you get it either...you are just normal...haha...okok...thinkin i am starting to spout nonsense...might be the lack of sleep...damn shit tired...but just cant get to bed...so near...yet so shit far ah...ahhh...

okok...better get to bed...need to wake up at ard 8 plus at least...and its like gg to be three in the mrn now...haha...

Booyaa!

Feel like shit...
Why only my happiness doesnt last...
why...
Screw my life...everything...


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I wan to live it my way...
Isit so bad!



Just what the hell am I doing with my life!?

Everything I Do Is Never Right.


All well...


Eu não sinto o mais só quando nenhum está em torno…
Eu sinto o mais só quando todos é em torno…
I arent estranho…




Welcome To My Life...

Kiseki...

Haha...longg time never update (and if i did only bad times....)

But now feel so much better...i am studying...and of course still gg out ah...will die if i dont...haha...

So now just for fun...haha...an update...a short post...

Now i have been really studying now...damn scard for exams...i have been slacking like mad since the start...just had no passion...haha...not tt i have the passion for accounts now...just that i have the passion to do well in exams...haha...really dont wan to fail anything...

Well i have been having my fun as well...so i like...now...haha...

Watched alot of movies and "hanging out" as usual...haha

Ohh and today met brenda after a longg time... it really wasnt planned... was nice! ahah...seems like nothing changed....good...i also like...haha

Ahh well...and yess i am also still watching shows...both kinds...asian and english...and animes! And currently i amw atching an anime Blood +....not bad i like...but its kinda long..but it is also good that it is long...so i dont watch too many eps in one day...i only watch when i like need a break...so its ok...of course sometimes it gets super intresting then cannot stop...haha...but sometimes then have like just nice places to stop u know...aiya...dunoo how to say...ahh well!


ok...i am done...haha

bye!



just waiting....

oidgn thwa i ontd lralye nwat uskcs. I efle tahetcitp. lehp.

No tinc ni idea del que l'infern a la terra estic fent ... He estat anant a classes .... han vingut estudiant ... Haven es va per a la conducció de les lliçons ... han estat fent res .... Em sento tan tonta ... encallat .. atrapats ... Me sento com tots els dies és un cicle ... i realment volen trencar ... Em sento tan patètic ... així que ... He de ... han de ... però ... odi això ... ajuda ... ajuda ... Ajuda ... sospir .... i condemnat gran moment ... ... Necessito una bufetada una puntada ... ... ... wadever només em desperta ... o .. permeti'm morir .... ara ... Em sento com si només portar el dolor a les persones ... però vull portar alegria a tot el món ... ... fer feliços ... incloent els meus pares ... maleït ... AHHHHH!

I wan to....

Nothing.

Let me ask you a question...
Would you feel annoyed,angry if ppl kept saying we gg out to eat today ok, must go. Then in the end don't end up gg because some other ppl don't wan?
Would you feel annoyed, angry if they said lets go out to eat today, then they go out somewhere and ask you to get ready at home then in the end never come home in time to go and eat? Plus you were waiting like an idiot for 3hrs.
Would you ever want to go out and eat with them?
Are you saying you wont feel cheated at all?
I am I rock?

One more question.
Does it really matter where we go eat? Isn't the only matter that we eat together?
Are you saying hawker centre food are not good enough for you?
Why the hell on earth must we go to expensive places for?
Is it my fault for wanting not to dress up?
My fault for wanting to go to a hawker centre?

Finally, is it my fault, am i wrong to feel annoyed and angry after all this? IS IT MY FAULT?????????

I swear i feel like running away! Far away...

Always trying to do wad they wan, trying to make them happy in the end i am always the bad girl....had enough....seriously...just wan to get away from all this.
Everytime...

And they don't even have one fucking idea how i feel, what am i thinking, what am i doing...they do not even know me.... Maybe its better this way...cause they will never get me...cause they don't listen...

But i am always the bad girl....its always because of me...then why am i here...

nothing...nothing...i have nothing...

AHHHHHHH!