Roller Coaster...

Downs and...wont say ups...but feel (or rather felt) better at times...

I just dont get ppl sometimes...
How they can "forget" abt a disagreement you just had the next day...and abt a few days when you fight again it comes backs...they would talk abt it again during the current argument...i mean just finish off...get so pist at times man....just wad they hell on earth do you wan kinda feeling...

Anw...been gg out alot again this week...but i did study as well...but as if its not enough though...haha...as always...

I have 25 days more to my exams...damn ahh...

Just cant believe i got myslef into this mess...haha...well...for once i wan to clear the mess with a good smell...dont get it? TOO BAD! Haha...Well you not not smart if you get it either...you are just normal...haha...okok...thinkin i am starting to spout nonsense...might be the lack of sleep...damn shit tired...but just cant get to bed...so near...yet so shit far ah...ahhh...

okok...better get to bed...need to wake up at ard 8 plus at least...and its like gg to be three in the mrn now...haha...

Booyaa!

Feel like shit...
Why only my happiness doesnt last...
why...
Screw my life...everything...


Viskas man yra blogai ...
Tiesiog rašykit man kitoje vietoje ...
Norėdami manote, kad aš buvau laimingas, kad tu grįžo ...
Jos vis dar tas pats ...
Vis dar jaučia vieni labiau nei kada nors ...
Visi aš užduodu yra šiek tiek Jautrumą ...
Niekas man tikrai patinka teise ...
Aš esu klaida ...
A klaidą turi būti gimę šią šeimą ...
Niekas man labai patinka ... priežasties aš esu negraži ... riebalai ... nenaudingas ir dievas, nieko šūdas ...
Tiesiog rašykit man visur, bet ... kažkur čia ...
Jaučiuosi taip, vieni su tiek daug ppl aplink ...
Ne vienas gauna mane ...
Aš išsekęs, kad ...
I cannot do anything, bet riksmas ...
Jaučiuosi taip liūdna ...
Kodėl jie negali suprasti manęs ...
Kodėl?
Kodėl aš gyvas?
Kodėl buvo i gimęs?
Kodėl jūs atsiųskite man į tokią vietą?
Kodėl ir norime, kad mane jaustis vienišas netgi su tiek daug ppl dartinės ... kodėl ..
Ar norėtumėte matyti mane verkti ir kenčia ..
Tikiuosi, kad jie vyti mane iš ...
Aš išsekęs, kad ...


I wan to live it my way...
Isit so bad!



Just what the hell am I doing with my life!?

Everything I Do Is Never Right.


All well...


Eu não sinto o mais só quando nenhum está em torno…
Eu sinto o mais só quando todos é em torno…
I arent estranho…




Welcome To My Life...

Kiseki...

Haha...longg time never update (and if i did only bad times....)

But now feel so much better...i am studying...and of course still gg out ah...will die if i dont...haha...

So now just for fun...haha...an update...a short post...

Now i have been really studying now...damn scard for exams...i have been slacking like mad since the start...just had no passion...haha...not tt i have the passion for accounts now...just that i have the passion to do well in exams...haha...really dont wan to fail anything...

Well i have been having my fun as well...so i like...now...haha...

Watched alot of movies and "hanging out" as usual...haha

Ohh and today met brenda after a longg time... it really wasnt planned... was nice! ahah...seems like nothing changed....good...i also like...haha

Ahh well...and yess i am also still watching shows...both kinds...asian and english...and animes! And currently i amw atching an anime Blood +....not bad i like...but its kinda long..but it is also good that it is long...so i dont watch too many eps in one day...i only watch when i like need a break...so its ok...of course sometimes it gets super intresting then cannot stop...haha...but sometimes then have like just nice places to stop u know...aiya...dunoo how to say...ahh well!


ok...i am done...haha

bye!



just waiting....

oidgn thwa i ontd lralye nwat uskcs. I efle tahetcitp. lehp.

No tinc ni idea del que l'infern a la terra estic fent ... He estat anant a classes .... han vingut estudiant ... Haven es va per a la conducció de les lliçons ... han estat fent res .... Em sento tan tonta ... encallat .. atrapats ... Me sento com tots els dies és un cicle ... i realment volen trencar ... Em sento tan patètic ... així que ... He de ... han de ... però ... odi això ... ajuda ... ajuda ... Ajuda ... sospir .... i condemnat gran moment ... ... Necessito una bufetada una puntada ... ... ... wadever només em desperta ... o .. permeti'm morir .... ara ... Em sento com si només portar el dolor a les persones ... però vull portar alegria a tot el món ... ... fer feliços ... incloent els meus pares ... maleït ... AHHHHH!

I wan to....

Nothing.

Let me ask you a question...
Would you feel annoyed,angry if ppl kept saying we gg out to eat today ok, must go. Then in the end don't end up gg because some other ppl don't wan?
Would you feel annoyed, angry if they said lets go out to eat today, then they go out somewhere and ask you to get ready at home then in the end never come home in time to go and eat? Plus you were waiting like an idiot for 3hrs.
Would you ever want to go out and eat with them?
Are you saying you wont feel cheated at all?
I am I rock?

One more question.
Does it really matter where we go eat? Isn't the only matter that we eat together?
Are you saying hawker centre food are not good enough for you?
Why the hell on earth must we go to expensive places for?
Is it my fault for wanting not to dress up?
My fault for wanting to go to a hawker centre?

Finally, is it my fault, am i wrong to feel annoyed and angry after all this? IS IT MY FAULT?????????

I swear i feel like running away! Far away...

Always trying to do wad they wan, trying to make them happy in the end i am always the bad girl....had enough....seriously...just wan to get away from all this.
Everytime...

And they don't even have one fucking idea how i feel, what am i thinking, what am i doing...they do not even know me.... Maybe its better this way...cause they will never get me...cause they don't listen...

But i am always the bad girl....its always because of me...then why am i here...

nothing...nothing...i have nothing...

AHHHHHHH!

My secret.

He sido clases que falta del dunoo semejante cuando. He ido solamente para una lección para el F2 desde que la escuela comenzó. Pero para el F2 y el F3 fui alrededor por dos semanas en el centro entonces que paré otra vez. El asilo I dijo cualquier persona en absoluto. Total. U es primer. ¿No dice tan cualquier persona incluso si la figura de u esta hacia fuera autorización!?

Tell me if your figured it out ok! And i promise its not just rubbish. It does mean something. Haha.

and all this time....

something is wrong...
something is incomplete...
something is missing...
i dont rem something...
wad the hell is tt...

damn.

Ok.

Sorry abt the last post, was just so damn pissed. Haha all better now...
Sometimes ppl just talk too much and dont know when to stop...
Once you have said it, you cant take it back,even if you are really sorry...
It will always remain a fact that you said it....
And one word/sentence can totally destroy the image of a person....
And that person becomes a stranger who you actually thought you knew...
Just like that....

Life eh.

I totally need to study ah... I think have finally gotten the momentum...hopefully i will understand better in the weeks to come...really wan to do well....properly...

I guess its the same...play hard and study hard....

PROČ????

Cítím se tak blbá, hloupá zpropadený!
Já jsem tak naštvaná!
proč??? hovno! Proč bych měl jedno!
U debile! U Zeptej se mě pak u dont věřte mi! JAK SHITfaced CAN U GET! SHITface! PIG hlavu! HATE YOU! Hlupák!

Já jsem opravdu s cílem ne? Proč to říkáš tt. Proč musí dělat i peníze a všichni říkají. Proč nikdo mi věřit? Myslím-li u říkají i dont know nic abt peníze i fakt, jako kurva .... JAK NA SVĚTĚ SE VÁM U VĚDĚT! WAD je sakra NA SVĚTĚ víš o mně??? VÁM TO I DONT KNOW ME! SO JUTS uzavíracím YOUR MOUTH hajzlu! WAD k čertu DO U VĚDĚT! SO JAK MŮŽE U SAY VŠECHNY SHIT! Kreténe! DONT TALK, jako byste vědět všechno I9N světa. U jsou velkou idiot s velkou hlavou. Myslíš si, jsou nejlepší? U sát! JSTE horší, než je osoba Nenávidím MOST! U jsou jen PURE SHIT. JSTE DONT KNOW ME! A nikdy .... A BUDE I dont wanna AŤ SE VÁM! Já raději zemřít. VÁŽNĚ.

ten pocit ..... nebylo zde ... nebo dlouho .... její záda ... i fakt této rodiny .... nikdo to zajímá .... falešné starají? pokud to udělají, proč nelze věřit, že právě já? Proč sld i to zatraceně všichni WAN. Proč dotírat i žít celý život. i fakt opravdu chtějí dostat ven. OUT OUT! Ven! I DONT CARE i když z tohoto světa! I JUST WAN TO GET OUT! JUST HATE tu být. Se všemi U. JSEM zatracený blacksheep aréna jsem! Pak jen mě zabít! Zatraceně VÁS. Potom stačí, život bude jednodušší a šťastnější. Možná bych se také. NIKDY JSTE nenávisti nebo kdokoli PRO skutečnosti tolik. PROČ MUSÍ být pouze já! ASSHOLEEEEEEE! DID U nich si myslí, JAK se budete cítit, jestli někdo řekl, U SE NA NE Cílem LIFE, když jste 19, SO STARÉ JIŽ ?????? Sakra !!!!!!!

AHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

=))

I PASSED!
HAHA!
YAY!

I know ppl think the test easy ah so no big deal passing...but ah i only studied the day b4...so yea. I relly tot i will fail ah! Good thing i passed! Hahaha! Now can go for prac lessons already!!!

And now in abt an hour i have to leave for school! Ahhh! Haha! Ahh well.

Boo!!

Haha, ok. Actually yesterday went to watch The X Files: I Want to Believe. It was actually kinda boring, draggy and damn dry. The storyline wad ok ah. But it was just so slow. The was only I think abt an hour and half but it seemed like two and half hours. Seriously! Think a bit waste to watch in cinema. Haha. Yup Mummy was better in the sense that i didnt come yawning out of the cinema ah... Hopefully will watch a good movie soon ah!

Ok anw i know i said i wanted to post pictures...but ah...since i took the photos with me cam the size is damn big. And thus resulting in a damnnn long time to upload! Ahhh! I guess i will just put a few i took with my phone! Haha!



Red. Yellow. Green. ! Haha. We were just trying for fun ahh!


One on Train, way back home.


Two on Train.

Haha i know i said few. But didnt use my phone much! So tts all ah! Hahaa!!

OHH and tmr i got my Basic Theory Test!! Yup driving! And havent really studied!! Everyone says its easy. But ah...there is just so many god damn signs! Damn Singapore ah! Ahh well!!

Janae! =))

HELLO!


Haha, today went to watch The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor.
It was a very...hmm...not very nice ah. But I tot the scenes were very nice. As in the places and stuff. But the storyline was very errrrrr. Haha. Had fun today. And thank you guys! Haha!!

Ok actually today took ALOT picsss! But i am kinda lazzzy to post....
So...wait till tmr? Hahaa!!! Ahhhh!

BYEEE!

There Are No Memories Its OK To Forget.
=))
Always Remember.

AT LAST. FINALLY. YAY!

Ok, yes...i know u can guess already...I HAVE FINALLY WATCHED THE DARK KNIGHT!


Haha, the tickets! Good seats too! Haha! =))
Haha. And as expected it was NICE! Loved the action sequences, the actors(some big names), the music was also not bad. But of course the person who stole the limelight of the whole movie...THE JOKER! Heath Leadger was WOW man! He was just a perfect joker, well at least for me. He was just so creepy and ahh...dunoo how to say. But ppl can watch the movie just for him. Creepiest thing ever man! Of course got pictures! Hehe! Was totally waiting to put up pictures of this movie. Haha!! =))



Of course firstly the Dark Knight himself, Batman! Christian Bale. I tot he looked diff when the wore the suit, Nisha also. Then i hated the way he sounded when he was Batman. Very...errr... don't like. Haha! But he wa sok all in all ah.


Aaron Eckhart... Harvey Dent (In the film) aka Two-Face. I couldn't find a nice picture of the two face character. Apparently they were keeping his two-face look a secret or something. Haha. But i tot it was kinda real...He was scary towards the end.


Michael Caine! He is Alfred Pennyworth! The butler! Haha.


And this is Maggie Gyllenhaal who replaced Katie Holmes as Rachel Dawes the reporter. Didn't know she was actually Jake Gyllenhaal's elder sister. Haha. Of course until I saw the name.


Then we have Gary Oldman as Lt. James Gordon. He was also cool in the movie. Oh and he looks kinda young in the bottom pic right! Haha!


And Morgan Freeman was Lucius Fox, the guy who does the "research" in the Wayne industries. Haha. Actually there this one part i didn't get where he used the cellphone to create images of the surroundings....super smart ah.


AHHHH! Cillian Murphy!! He was the villain in the Batman begins. But he appears for one scene here. LOveeee his eyes man!!He not bad looking too! Hhaaaa! =))


The Joker! Look at his face and the way he sits. (Screen shots)



Haha! He looked so cute in the nurse dress and the wig!!! So funny and cute!!

Yea and it looks like he hates ALL superheros eh... Haha!
Poor Spiderman? I don't mind. Don't like Spiderman anw! Haha!!


AHHHHH! This is the joker! CREEPY RIGHT!
OHH, my fave part was when he will tell the story of how he got the scars near his mouth there.
Then at one part he will go...
"Why so serious? Let's put a smile on that face of yours!"
It wahhhhhhhh! Loved it! Hhaha!


That smile does not exist anymore. Just gone. Just like that.
Heath Ledger!! Wad a transformation right?!! He actually very good actor. And he was only 28! There was so much more he could have done. Ah well, life's never fair right.
I know its been a while since he passed away...but you know when you look at this film and him.... such a loss. Sooo ahh!
Anw hope he wins some award so something for this cause i guess he deserved it. =))


Anw ppl watch it k! Haha! Want you guys to share my joy as well!! Haha!!

WHY? Two Times Already!

Haha...

First we are suppose to watch The Dark Knight on Friday...Then i couldn't cause had to take care of cuz!!

Second, then today wen to PS already then only got front seats left! And cannot go for the next show also, yesss cause of my dumb so-called curfew. And some more the movie is 2+ hrs...AHHHH!

SOOOooo....we are gg for tmr morn show. Early early one. Hopefully can make it. Good thing Nisha start late tmr! Haha. So hopefully i will watch it tmr....

CANT WAIT!!

Anw today's my Brother's Bday. I guess this is his first time having it overseas. So cool right. Haha...But i guess he didnt enjoy today, he had school! So sad! Haha. Ahh well... Hes 24 already. So old. Haha. Soooo weird... I know he will never see this but ahh well...

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY BRO !!!!
~WHoOoOo~
=))

Really have no idea wad i haven been doing....
Help?
How?
Now?
But....
AHHHHHHHHHHH!

HELLo

Haha, just watched Hellboy II today. Not bad i have to say. It was so much more entertaining and definitely nicer than THE HAPPENING. The movie was SO NOT happening!!!
Hellboy was actually funny and the demons were soooo cute! Epically Abe! But i tot the ending would have been better though...it just ended like that. No BAM! ending u know...haha. I mean you would expect it if the movie was actually nice. The starting was actually a bit slow...but later it picked up and was NICEEE!! I would say its worth watching... Hard to accept but i think i laughed more today, during this movie than Hancock! Haha. But i have to admit, i only wanted to watch the movie cause i saw the trailer and tot the villain (Prince Nuada) was so super cool! But i got more than i hoped for! So its ALL good!! =))
Ok so now wad i am gg to do is identify the demons! AH!




Okiee, first up we have Hellboy himself! Its Ron Perlman! He was cute in the movie sometimes. Cute in the sense of the character. Haha.


Hellboy's girlfriend, Liz Sherman. Real name Selma Blair.
Seen her in a few films but were all like minor roles.



Then we have Tin man! HAHA! (In the movie Prince Nauada will call him that!) Actually there is no human involved here, was just a character. But the voice-over was done guy,Seth MacFarlane. Hes actually a writer as well. Did a few cartoons. Haha. Oh by the way the real name of the character was Johann Krauss. Haha! right?


Ooo and this is Princess Nuala. Her real name is Anna Walton. Pretty right. Very sweet.


I love this..this thing! character sorry. Haha. He was just SO ADORABLE! The name is Abe Sapien. He sooo cute in the movie! The way he movie and the eyes and the ways he talks and looks!! SUPER CUTE! The real guy is Doug Jones. He was actually the silver surfer in F4: Rise of the Silver Surfer. Didn't know... anws. He just soo cute here!


Prince Nuada!! AHHH! Super cool!!! =))


His real name is Luke Gross. Loved his swordplay in the movie. Think he acted well! Super cool!


Ok and this...i dony rem a name cause it only came
for a scene...But its looks hmm...sort of nice right? I
dunoo i am just attracted to things with wings. Haha.
Just tot this Character was soo WAHH. Oh can u see...
the face actually has no eyes...but the wings are like
COVERED with eyes! Nicee right!



Haha! This a part where Abe will talk to Princess Nuada.
He actually likes her but dunoo hows to talk...
Super cute! The way he messes it up and talks and
looks at her!! Funny too!


Ok loved this part of the movie like mad! Haha!
It was so FUNNY! And of course CUTE!
Abe will actually be listening to love songs (which
his SO NOT his type) than Hellboy will find out
and realise that he actually like the princess.
Then since Hellboy also having problems with Liz.
They will both listen to the love song cd , particularly
"Cant Smile Without You" song, and soon after
start singing that song!! Haha! It was just so hilarious!!
Loved this scene! Abe was so cutee!
Oh oh and in the end they will both get drunk!!


Haha...not bad lah...worth watching. Funny unexpectedly. Sld watch it!! Haha.

Okie till next time....byeee! =))



A thought....just a thought....

HELLO.



Always. Never. Why.



Just For Fun!



Ok actually Silei saw this picture in a public
toilet and took this picture...Then i took it
from her cause it IS cute...
Then one fine day....i came acroos this some sort
of similar picture in the net....
And its not dirty...ITS SO ADORABLE!


NOTE: maybe it would have been better
without the words....but...the picture is STILL cute!

That' all!

Hmmm.

I came across this website ah. It's like a comic with super simple stick men pictures. It was mostly based on romance and maths if i remember properly. And i also don't remember the add of the website now also. Haha. It was kinda funny for the ones i understood ah. Yup there were a few which i just totally didn't get. Haha.
So here are a few....that i liked.


Babies.


Dreams.


Snapple.


Words CAN Hurt.



Haha. Ah well. Anw today was my first lesson of my second subject. It was ok. But i felt sleepy like mad. Good thing i bought sweet on my way. Oh and i met Silei after lesson went to eat ramen! Finally. But sadly most of the ramen there were pork! =( I sort of expected it but i also expected them to have more variety in other meat as well. So yea. But it wasn't bad ah. Then we went to eat New York Cheesecake for Secret Recipe! Finally Silei could try that! Haha. And of course she liked it. Then we just walked around aimlessly...Wanted to watch movie but it was so super crowded....It was youth day today... Totally forgot about it till this mrn. So yea...then we sat at Starbucks eating out Carmel corm(green tea flavoured) and talking pictures...Haha...then went back home!! Yes! i have pictures. Haha.



The ramen. It was seafood if i am not wrong...haha!


New York Cheesecake! From Secret Recipe!


Cheesecake and Silei!


Me and Cheesecake! Haha.



Red and Green Carmel corn. Our buddies.



One.


Two.


With Carmel buddies now.


Again.


Dunoo what happened. But silei! AH!
HAHA!


More Silei HAHA!


One more!

Ok i am done. Haha. Till next time then. I am going to watch numb3rs already! Hahah!
ooooooo....
Byeeeeeeee....


And all this time.....