Kiseki...

Haha...longg time never update (and if i did only bad times....)

But now feel so much better...i am studying...and of course still gg out ah...will die if i dont...haha...

So now just for fun...haha...an update...a short post...

Now i have been really studying now...damn scard for exams...i have been slacking like mad since the start...just had no passion...haha...not tt i have the passion for accounts now...just that i have the passion to do well in exams...haha...really dont wan to fail anything...

Well i have been having my fun as well...so i like...now...haha...

Watched alot of movies and "hanging out" as usual...haha

Ohh and today met brenda after a longg time... it really wasnt planned... was nice! ahah...seems like nothing changed....good...i also like...haha

Ahh well...and yess i am also still watching shows...both kinds...asian and english...and animes! And currently i amw atching an anime Blood +....not bad i like...but its kinda long..but it is also good that it is long...so i dont watch too many eps in one day...i only watch when i like need a break...so its ok...of course sometimes it gets super intresting then cannot stop...haha...but sometimes then have like just nice places to stop u know...aiya...dunoo how to say...ahh well!


ok...i am done...haha

bye!



just waiting....

oidgn thwa i ontd lralye nwat uskcs. I efle tahetcitp. lehp.

No tinc ni idea del que l'infern a la terra estic fent ... He estat anant a classes .... han vingut estudiant ... Haven es va per a la conducció de les lliçons ... han estat fent res .... Em sento tan tonta ... encallat .. atrapats ... Me sento com tots els dies és un cicle ... i realment volen trencar ... Em sento tan patètic ... així que ... He de ... han de ... però ... odi això ... ajuda ... ajuda ... Ajuda ... sospir .... i condemnat gran moment ... ... Necessito una bufetada una puntada ... ... ... wadever només em desperta ... o .. permeti'm morir .... ara ... Em sento com si només portar el dolor a les persones ... però vull portar alegria a tot el món ... ... fer feliços ... incloent els meus pares ... maleït ... AHHHHH!

I wan to....

Nothing.

Let me ask you a question...
Would you feel annoyed,angry if ppl kept saying we gg out to eat today ok, must go. Then in the end don't end up gg because some other ppl don't wan?
Would you feel annoyed, angry if they said lets go out to eat today, then they go out somewhere and ask you to get ready at home then in the end never come home in time to go and eat? Plus you were waiting like an idiot for 3hrs.
Would you ever want to go out and eat with them?
Are you saying you wont feel cheated at all?
I am I rock?

One more question.
Does it really matter where we go eat? Isn't the only matter that we eat together?
Are you saying hawker centre food are not good enough for you?
Why the hell on earth must we go to expensive places for?
Is it my fault for wanting not to dress up?
My fault for wanting to go to a hawker centre?

Finally, is it my fault, am i wrong to feel annoyed and angry after all this? IS IT MY FAULT?????????

I swear i feel like running away! Far away...

Always trying to do wad they wan, trying to make them happy in the end i am always the bad girl....had enough....seriously...just wan to get away from all this.
Everytime...

And they don't even have one fucking idea how i feel, what am i thinking, what am i doing...they do not even know me.... Maybe its better this way...cause they will never get me...cause they don't listen...

But i am always the bad girl....its always because of me...then why am i here...

nothing...nothing...i have nothing...

AHHHHHHH!