back. and dying. want to survive. can./?

ok, seriously i am so gg to die...As is like in about 23 days and here i am blogging again,using the com,WATCHING TV and of course "relaxing". sighh...everyone is stressed. i guess, expect for those from RJ, HCI, VJC, NJC.....blah blah....smart people....ohh hardworking as well.

that aside, i suddenly thought about why people blog? i blog because its like a place where you say everything you feel, your opinions about things, you open up and let it all out...how you feel...good or bad...a blog...your blog is about you...only you. i mean if its not then why blog? why?

previously, after that i stopped writing all the "sad" stuff and only wrote abt the "happy" stuff. i mean yea it was nice...but it felt so fake and not totally me. then one fine day something really bad happened and i couldn't take it but i didn't want to blog abt it as well because i was afraid...then i found out the______. it helped, a lot. i said wad i wanted to and no one could understand....ohhh i just realised i did that previously! haha! but then i realised why must i be afraid of what others think...i write what i want to...because its MY blog. so if you have a problem with it....the exit to my blog is only a click away. i didn't beg you to come and read. and if you want to laugh abt it, go ahead. =) but of course there are still some things which i totally dont want to say just like that....so i dont...but i still do at the same time! ahha!ohh and codes are just needed sometimes....

anw, my point...its your blog....do wadver you want say wadver you want and heck the other shits who got some shit to say. =) simple.


its so easy when i say it to others...why dont/simply cant belive in what i say? its just so diffcult...and i really understand how it was possible for her. i really cant....feel soooo shitfied. why? damn.