BOOM!
cannot feel!!!/ Something .....


yea, as the days pass by....I FEEL LIKE DYING! ARGH!!!
damn!damn scard ah! i dunoo wad i am doing. still got time to come online, chit chat, blah blah and bloggg....omg man!

the time bomb (time check: wad 9 days???) in me....NOT WORKING! or maybe it just shut of, cause i am so petrified till i so relaxed now.damn.

study!study!study!

ohh i bought a new zen stone plus. black. yea had time for shopping as well. =((



suddenly.....
suddenly i feel there is so many things i don't know.
suddenly i feel my brother is so much more knowledgeable. impressed.
suddenly i feel there is so much more to learn.
suddenly i want to know more. but not about studies. zzzzz
suddenly i want to see things in a different view.
suddenly i want to change.
suddenly i feel stupid and damn dumb. ok fine, have been feeling that for a long time.


so many things out there. and all this while...its been always about me?
guess human nature got me as well. but i want to be different. i am going to be different. its going to be difficult. but i am going to try my best, do whatever i can.

but for now....As is still more important. hopefully As will be an stepping stone to what i want to do. actually i don't specifically know what i want...but i know what i want to do.

OoOoOOoOOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOo

GONE!